What was my mistake?

I have been asking myself this question for the past 2 days. But not yet been able to find an answer to it. What have I done wrong? What was my mistake? How have I hurt you? Just want to know only that much, nothing else. I don't want you to change whatever decision you have taken. You decided to walk in one day and now you decide to walk off. Fine, I have no issues with it. I have learnt to live with such situations in life. I will just go back to my life the way it was 8 months ago. I can live my life on my own. But I want to know where I went wrong this time....

Thoughts.....

Been long time, since I wrote some thing, I know. Came back to Bangalore, been busy with settling down in office, no full time access to the internet,etc etc. I know, just some excuses. Well right now, I logged in to work on a presentation which I am supposed to finish by Tuesday morning and I have just started on it. But then, I get this sudden urge to scribble some thing over here.

Sometimes a lot of things which you want to forget, keep coming back to your mind. However hard you try to forget them, once in a while they do a rewind and play. You dont want to bring back any of these thoughts. But somewhere deep down in your heart, you still have those feelings with you. Do you really have those feelings? You know where all it has taken you through and you know it is not going to take you to any new place either. So then why? I don't have an answer.

Then there are some other thoughts, which you are not letting yourself to even think. Its not because you don't like these thoughts, you just don't want these thoughts to get into your head. Is it just because you are scared, or is it because you are the only one doing the thinking, or is it because it will continue to remain just as thoughts, reaching no where. Again I don't have an answer.

Well, I just wish some time all these thoughts come to an end. Till then, just trying to stay unattached to all such thoughts and trying to enjoy life in other ways. Frankly, I wish I could just hug someone now and cry for a while.